Spectrum of Mom Emotions in a day!

Posted by Overthinking Aquarian on January 30, 2018 in

 I was working from home and was RELIEVED to get some alone time when my 19m old son left for daycare in the morning.

I picked him up in the evening, HAPPY to see him.

Back home, I am in the kitchen and he is playing by himself. I recently bought a big set of jumbo zoo and farm animal toys and have been giving him one animal each day. I show him a giraffe toy and he jumps with joy. This MELTS MY HEART

"What is this?", I ask. (He can't say 'giraffe' yet) He pulls out his picture book and opens the page with a giraffe and points towards it. Now I feel PROUD. He is learning and I can see it.

After dinner he is bored with toys, so I let him watch TV while I am busy in the kitchen. After 30 mins, I tell him "That's enough, I am going to switch off the TV after the next song/rhyme". I am warming his milk and don't realize the song is over. I walk over to him and he hands me the remote and says "mama, done", while pointing to the the TV. I am in AWE that he understood that TV time is over.

Bed time. I just spread a new sheet on his bed and he spills milk on it, I get FRUSTRATED.

He usually sleeps on his bed within 20 mins of me leaving the room, but this night, he was struggling to fall asleep. So, I go inside and we cuddle. He is jumping on the bed in the dark and hits his head to the bed and starts crying. Sudden WORRY that he might have hit his eye. I switch on the light, and make sure he is fine.

I console him, now he wants to sleep in my arms. Just about an hour ago, I felt he was growing up, but now.. I feel he is still a little baby. Oh, how much I LOVE him!

I sing to him and he is slowly falling asleep. I hate my singing voice, but I had this thought - 'No matter how ridiculous my voice is, it still sounds sweet to my baby, it comforts him.'

As I am looking at him falling asleep in my arms, he moves away from my arms, onto his bed. He got what he wanted (cuddling with amma) and now he wants to sleep freely on his bed. BRUTUS! I feel cheated. LOL.

These were the spectrum of emotions I went through in a span of just a few hours! This is what we go through as moms, and unconditional LOVE is what keeps us going! This is the story of EVERY mom!